“I dream of the future…”

A print on climate anxiety.

“I dream of the future”.

16” x 22.5”. Intaglio etch and aquatint print on Reeves BFK paper. 2023.

ABSTRACT

“Every one of us is, in the cosmic perspective, is precious. If a human disagrees with you, let him live. In a hundred billion galaxies you will not find another.”

-Carl Sagan, “Cosmos”

THE SHORT OF IT

During a printmaking class in the summer of 2023, I wanted to crystallize some of my feelings regarding the climate crisis into a print. I also wanted to offset it with a second print that would capture a cautious optimism or resilience in the face of such deep angst. This second, more optimistic print would become the piece titled “Better Angels”, which depicted a parent and child elephant marvelling at the beauty of the world.

In the first print, which focused on drawn typography incorporating elements of melting ice caps and rising sea levels, the text reads, ‘Yo sueño con el futuro’, meaning ‘I dream of the future’.

It’s an open-ended enough statement which doesn’t necessarily spell out doom and gloom for the human race: neutral, vague enough to leave room for interpretation, and to invite thought from the viewer on what their own thoughts might be on what the future may be like.

The print was created by using an intaglio (incised carving) etching process to create linework on a 6”x 9” zinc plate. In order to create areas of tone, an aquatint process was utilized: it is similar to the intaglio process in that it requires submerging the zinc plate into a container full of etching acid, but it is different because aquatint can etch broad areas whereas intaglio etching only incises linework.

THE LONG OF IT

The topic of climate change and environmental degradation is one I spend a lot of time thinking about.

There is probably something to be said about thinking too much about such an enormous and daunting subject. I often wonder how other people feel about the climate. It’s, in my opinion, the single greatest existential challenge we face, possibly only rivaled by the existence of nuclear weapons.

Most people probably don’t spend that much time thinking about it: if they did, they would struggle with the kinds of depression and anxiety I feel! I don’t doubt that my thoughts envisioning the future, influenced by countless reports of the ocean catching fire or the smoke clouds from cataclysmic wildfires blotting out the sun for weeks, are foundational in those dark feelings.

Sometimes I wish we didn’t live in this time, having to grapple with this kind of challenge. It’s so large and seems so daunting, to the point that it’s very easy to become depressed and feel powerless in its presence.

In my youth, as I think many of us did and perhaps still do to some extent, I thought this might be solved through our individual acts such as recycling and buying electric cars. As I’ve grown older, those ideas have been challenged. I have probably done alot of ‘doomscrolling’, as I have wanted to understand the problem and what we can do to solve it, so I am left unsure about how biased and skewed my worldview might be. But it seems very clear to me, even without my depression-colored glasses on, that our individual acts to care for the environment and cut down our carbon footprint, though very necessary, cannot be the sole solution to this problem.

There are too many oil companies and climate-denying businessmen and lobbyists that have too much concentrated power for that to occur. And my anxiety is, the people with the power to make actual change won’t do so because it is not profitabble to do so. It’s my fear that things will not change until it’s too late.

Enough with trying to predict what the future of the world might be. I don’t know! All I know is, I care, and I’m a bit confused and kind of scared. But I have to believe that there’s a way forward somehow. Somehow.

Research

As a result of my CONSTANT thinking on climate change, an architecture of images and emotional territory already existed inside me that I wanted to evoke through this project. In collecting images of melting ice caps, patterns of light rippling through water, and editorial illustrations, I wanted to capture some of the dread, anxiety, and uncertainty I have personally felt regarding climate change.

An entire new ecology of psychological terms continues to be coined as our modern world learns more about how our species impacts our planet. “Eco-anxiety”, “ecological grief”, “eco-fatalism” all describe very real feelings of powerlessness and preemptive grief at what we perceive to be losses we will experience in the future due to climate change and environmental destruction.

Coupled with other societal and geopolitical adversities we have experienced in recent years, young people growing up or attempting to carve out a life for themselves with these realities face some serious challenges to their mental health.

It’s important to find ways to manage and cope with feelings of anxiety and uncertainty in the face of such an enormous existential problem such as climate change. There ARE some things individuals can do as we all try to cherish our fragile world.

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